UNFETTER

Tremendous force of
love in my life
accepting and warm
caring and steadfast in commit
mentoring me through the ups and downs
pushing through to deeper layers of
who I am and still
always
loving.

Grateful is my heart
yet
cleaving to a part that is unseen
maybe felt
but still unseen
unspoken

Truly I say to you that
I trust in you and I believe in
us enough to unfetter my heart
that you might know
as I now know
and continue to know each day
Who
I
Am
a
Lesbian.

Crystal clear
and no longer doubting is my state
of mind and despite it all
despite Larry
despite mother
despite father
despite myself
despite even Jesus
it has always been this way
even as a child
and refuses
refuses
refuses to be denied any longer.

Every woman I’ve ever loved
a shameful secret
Every man I’ve ever loved
a lie
to myself
and to everybody else.

Lest this truth be cast from me
as a part of God’s divine will,
though no condemnation exists from Him
and I pray not from you
I shall live in truth
and the truth has made me free
to love
her.